My first blog-Urge to write

 Today is September 24th,2022. I have been trying to write a few pages since morning for one of the product features that we are trying to sunset due to feature abuse. I am procrastinating because I am not motivated enough to write the product requirement document. But from no motivation to write a couple of product requirement document to writing my first every blog post at half past 11 is a massive change to happen within 24 hours. So, what really happened today? 

ANU MAM!

Today was my son's first ever parent teacher meet. My wife who initially thought would send her mother for the meet, ended up attending the meeting, partly due to my push and partly due to not having a work conflict at the said time. My wife spent a good 15 mins talking to both the principal and my son's teacher. She knew I would be excited to know about the outcome of the meeting, she called me promptly after the meeting but I couldn't attend her call as was busy in the morning. I received a call post my lunch to discuss about the meeting. My wife started off with all the good things the teachers and principal had to say about my kid. The stuff that every parent would like to hear, such as playing well with kids, interaction with kids is good and obeys teacher's instruction. Then, she slowly slipped one other point that was discussed in the meeting that stayed with me throughout the day. She said my son is extremely comfortable in school only if ANU MAM is managing the class and not any one else. He cries his lungs out when he doesn't see or have ANU MAM around. Infact, he did the same today when he entered the school and didn't see ANU MAM inspite of my wife being around him. 

When I initially heard this piece of information from my wife, I was a little disappointed. I was expecting everything to be perfect at the play school for my kid and was hoping the teachers would say he is the best kid with no complaints. Well, my expectations have been super high but the problem is I don't know what a best kid in play group would do? I don't know if this is a normal behavior or not? I don't know how kids think and what their world is all about? I don't know if what the teachers told is the definition of best or perfect? But still I feel a little worked up, I think the kid should be doing more than what he is doing right now. I feel the kid should be a prodigy and it is my duty to make him one. I keep researching for classes, courses, hobbies activities for a kid who is not even turned 3. Deep inside, I do these things to make sure that my kid is super successful and has a better life than what I had. It could also be because of a very negative approach that I have towards life and things. It could be because I don't trust my wife or in-laws to give the best that is needed for the kid. It could be because of some random anecdote from an astrologer that is bothering me. It could be because of my upbringing and the urge to win at all cost. I am not sure why I am doing it this way but one thing that i realized and consciously decided to do today is to work on myself and level set expectations, stop over thinking.


Finally, Who is this ANU MAM? why is my kid so attached to ANU MAM and likes having her around? Well, I don't know the answers for the questions but whatever ANU MAM is doing works for my kid. I am happy and grateful to ANU MAM for that. 





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